I want to spend my birthday alone this year. By that I mean a lot of time away from family, friends, loved one. I will be a stranger among strangers, hiding away in anonymity (as if hahabulin ng paparazzi haha).
I think I need this – to feel a sense of independence, to know for sure that I can be who I am without the usual people around me. To be honest, I’ve been craving for this for years. This desire to break away. I get it at random moments. I vividly remember a time when I was sitting in a jeepney on Buendia, and I wanted to literally fly through the window and just go far, far away. Of course I was stuck between office workers and men in sando until I alighted in front of RCBC, but I will never forget that feeling. That was me, on a cliff, wanting desperately – excitedly – to fly off the edge.
4 comments:
we never stop learning about ourselves -- in solitude, among loved ones or strangers. it's a constant, ongoing process.
you don't need to be *physically* alone to know about yourself. unless what you really mean is you want to know who you are as who you are -- not as a fiancee, daughter, friend, teacher, or colleague. regardless, i still maintain :)
i understand what you mean. :) but at that point i needed to physically block the noise, and create a temporary shell. i just really needed the silence.
haaayz.. quarter life crisis na ba 'to? haha i miss you two. kelan ka ba uuwi shivs? at kelan ang fitting, lara?
post quarter life hehe.
november uuwi si shiva.
measurement-taking niyo ay first week of nov ata, will confirm. labas tayo after! or inom na lang tayo sa bahay hehe. miss ko na rin kayo. :(
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